Happy Birthday(2005 edited)
A happy day.
Everyone wishes you
“Happy Birthday.”
But I wait for one.
A wish that should come.
Be normal.
Natural
Familiar
From who was there
In the beginning
Will I ever hear it
A father's wish
Happy Birthday.
What I Need to Say (Edited 2006)
Anger
Fear
Hate
Love
Anger at your actions.
Fear of acceptance.
Hate at your lack.
Love even after the pain.
Daddy's Little Girl ( Edited 2007)
I remember
Swings
Catch
Bike rides
When you left
I was
Happy
Golden
Loved
Alone
I loved
Missed
Forgave
You
I grew into a woman.
Held you in my heart.
Even through the absence.
I was still Daddy's girl.
Never Give up (Short Story 2009)
You know words are my passion, but when it comes to talking to you, there’s no word. Just pain and fear. For if I say the wrong thing will you care? Will you even reply? Do you want to be in some type of relationship with me? Why do I even care? Every time I get on this path. I get a door slam in my face. Tears roll down my checks; every time. I feel defeated…yet here I am again. I don’t what to say anything, but I know one thing I want to fix this. I want to be your daughter. I want my father in my life. I want it all; maybe I am just opening my heart for things I’ll never get. But that doesn’t matter for I will never give up…
Do you (2010)
Do you know me?
Do you even care, remember me?
That little girl you left behind.
That child you forgot.
The days we missed.
The years without you.
Do you regret the time missed.
Do you even care?
I do, do you...
Faith (2015)
He will lead you
Show you the way
Give you the tool
He will be there.
(based on Mark 4:41)
Daddy (2015)
Years of love and fun. Even though I only remember a few. So young when you left. Too many bad memories were built. Years of nothing. Feelings of anger, hate, and abandonment. Heartache and tears for many years. What happen? Why did you pull away? Why did it have to end? Was it, me? Did I not try hard enough? Now that it is over, I'm unsure of what to do. So many unanswered questions. So much pain. But I still love you. Even with the pain, I still forgave you. I hope you fly high as I try to remember the few good memories we had. I will learn from your mistakes, and will ever leave my own. Apart me knows you regret it. And I promise not to have the same regrets. We many have never gotten to fix things. But I will still hold you close. My sweet Daddy.
Hope (2015)
Through Pain there is
Sadness
Heartache
Hope
Through Grief there is
Heartbreak
Loss
Hope
Through God There is
Hope.
Maybe (2015)
Maybe this is wrong.
Maybe this is right.
My heart is unsure.
My heart is broken.
Maybe I don't understand.
Maybe I don't know.
Maybe....
Grief (2015)
Shock
Anger
Fear
Uncertainty
Forgiveness
Pain
Love
Grief
He Knows (2015)
My Truth
My love
My prayer
My loss
He knows
“Pile your troubles on God Shoulders-he'll carry your load...” ~Psalm 55:22
Eulogy (2015)
Is anyone crying for help?God is listening,
ready to rescue you.
If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there;
if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.~Psalm 34:17-18 The Message
We had very few happy memories. But one I do remember after all these years, is playing catch. Tossing a simple ball back and forth. The memory is much like our relationship. Since the day you left I was the ball. There were times you were there and others I was alone. Back and forth a never ending cycle. Till I put the mitt down. I regret it now and wish we had a chance. But a part of me doesn;t regret it. Letting go help with the pain even if it was lost time. I could only take so many throws. But know I wish you had thrown the ball back on last time. And I hope that I will catch in heaven. When I see you again. I hope you know that even through the years of absence, I never hate you. And that I forgave you. The happy memories will forever live on in my heart...
A happy day.
Everyone wishes you
“Happy Birthday.”
But I wait for one.
A wish that should come.
Be normal.
Natural
Familiar
From who was there
In the beginning
Will I ever hear it
A father's wish
Happy Birthday.
What I Need to Say (Edited 2006)
Anger
Fear
Hate
Love
Anger at your actions.
Fear of acceptance.
Hate at your lack.
Love even after the pain.
Daddy's Little Girl ( Edited 2007)
I remember
Swings
Catch
Bike rides
When you left
I was
Happy
Golden
Loved
Alone
I loved
Missed
Forgave
You
I grew into a woman.
Held you in my heart.
Even through the absence.
I was still Daddy's girl.
Never Give up (Short Story 2009)
You know words are my passion, but when it comes to talking to you, there’s no word. Just pain and fear. For if I say the wrong thing will you care? Will you even reply? Do you want to be in some type of relationship with me? Why do I even care? Every time I get on this path. I get a door slam in my face. Tears roll down my checks; every time. I feel defeated…yet here I am again. I don’t what to say anything, but I know one thing I want to fix this. I want to be your daughter. I want my father in my life. I want it all; maybe I am just opening my heart for things I’ll never get. But that doesn’t matter for I will never give up…
Do you (2010)
Do you know me?
Do you even care, remember me?
That little girl you left behind.
That child you forgot.
The days we missed.
The years without you.
Do you regret the time missed.
Do you even care?
I do, do you...
Faith (2015)
He will lead you
Show you the way
Give you the tool
He will be there.
(based on Mark 4:41)
Daddy (2015)
Years of love and fun. Even though I only remember a few. So young when you left. Too many bad memories were built. Years of nothing. Feelings of anger, hate, and abandonment. Heartache and tears for many years. What happen? Why did you pull away? Why did it have to end? Was it, me? Did I not try hard enough? Now that it is over, I'm unsure of what to do. So many unanswered questions. So much pain. But I still love you. Even with the pain, I still forgave you. I hope you fly high as I try to remember the few good memories we had. I will learn from your mistakes, and will ever leave my own. Apart me knows you regret it. And I promise not to have the same regrets. We many have never gotten to fix things. But I will still hold you close. My sweet Daddy.
Hope (2015)
Through Pain there is
Sadness
Heartache
Hope
Through Grief there is
Heartbreak
Loss
Hope
Through God There is
Hope.
Maybe (2015)
Maybe this is wrong.
Maybe this is right.
My heart is unsure.
My heart is broken.
Maybe I don't understand.
Maybe I don't know.
Maybe....
Grief (2015)
Shock
Anger
Fear
Uncertainty
Forgiveness
Pain
Love
Grief
He Knows (2015)
My Truth
My love
My prayer
My loss
He knows
“Pile your troubles on God Shoulders-he'll carry your load...” ~Psalm 55:22
Eulogy (2015)
Is anyone crying for help?God is listening,
ready to rescue you.
If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there;
if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.~Psalm 34:17-18 The Message
We had very few happy memories. But one I do remember after all these years, is playing catch. Tossing a simple ball back and forth. The memory is much like our relationship. Since the day you left I was the ball. There were times you were there and others I was alone. Back and forth a never ending cycle. Till I put the mitt down. I regret it now and wish we had a chance. But a part of me doesn;t regret it. Letting go help with the pain even if it was lost time. I could only take so many throws. But know I wish you had thrown the ball back on last time. And I hope that I will catch in heaven. When I see you again. I hope you know that even through the years of absence, I never hate you. And that I forgave you. The happy memories will forever live on in my heart...
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